So writing about who I am is actually much harder than I expected, but this page is empty and needs something written on it, so here goes…
My name is Del in the real word and online and this is actually my fourth blog, but the first blog that I write about me and for me.
The first blog I started is called superRelish a name that was taken from a song phrase my son sang – Supercalifragi-RELISH, he combined two of our favourite loves, his love of Mary Poppins and my love of home made Relish. The second is Far Away Land and is purely a travel journal that I write from from the perspective of different family members. The third, creating superRelish is one I haven’t looked at in ages, but when it is complete it will be the letters and photos that I have sent on behalf of the kids when they were younger, before the superRelish blog was born. When I began this blog, I couldn’t think of a name for it, all of the great names were gone. I wanted the name to mean something to me. I had nothing and was just picking random names to see if they were available. My Relish was available and whilst it isn’t super, it is my Relish, a place where I can be me, but who am I?
If I think about it I am actually 33 years old, but instinctively I will always say that I am 27 and have been since I was 24. I am the mum of the monsters, boy-child who was born in 2002, girl-child born in 2003 and man-child, the love of my life and guy I married in 1999. We all live in an inner suburb of Melbourne. I am a full time mum and also have part time work that has more than part time hours, in fact I work far too many hours every week, even when I am on leave. Most of the time I love my work, but hate the politics that surround it.
I grew up in a very small country town in the middle of nowhere in north eastern Victoria with my mum, dad, brother and sister. We were, and still are (I hope) really normal. My parents worked hard to give us all that they could in the hope that we would have an education and employment and wouldn’t have to fight so hard to survive. In order to do this, I moved to Melbourne to study when I was 17.
So that is pretty much it for the history of me. It doesn’t really tell you much so I will try to add some more. Despite outward appearances of confidence and extroversion, I am insecure, self conscious and afraid of the excesses of success almost as much as I am afraid of failure. I guess that I am good at whatever I do; I’m not great but fairly decent at most things. I like to fix thing – people, relationships, situations and even objects. I am hopeless at self-promoting but can market and promote other people that I believe in with ease.
An ideal afternoon for me would be spent in a park, relaxing on soft green grass reading a book and relaxing to the sounds of the kids running wild and climbing trees. Stopping now and then to play for a few minutes or to take photos. This ideal afternoon could be enhanced by adding more family, a few friends and a picnic.
I enjoy being by myself, but I hate to feel alone. I thrive on routine and organisation, yet consistency tends to drive me insane. I know that makes absolutely no sense, but I also love spontaneity, I just struggle to find spontaneity and still remain organised and efficient.
So why do I blog? Well it is a place for me to find out who I am, to find people who have similar interests or circumstances, not dire circumstances just normal people being normal. It is also to try and find a place where I belong. Some days I will write as a mum, other days it will be as an employed person, other days it may be as a member of a diverse community.
So that is me, I think. I am sure if I read through this in an hour I will change my mind and rewrite it, but for now, it will do. Feel free to drop me a line to say hi at email@example.com and thanks for dropping by.