15 Jun

In one of my favourite blogs, Zoot refers to undermining the abilities of those near and dear to you when it relates to parenting.  Well I have to admit that I am very guilty of this behaviour.  I want the messages that the kids receive to be consistent so I guess that I adopt a ‘my way or the highway’ type of attitude.

Tonight I couldn’t cope with the mixed messages the kids were getting from man-child.  This, coupled with the lack of control over the pain in the world around me, I felt that I was having a melt down and I needed to get out before I snapped.

As I was wandering around, trying to relax, I began thinking about a girl from high school.  I would like to say this girl was a friend, but we weren’t, she was the strange big sister of one of my class mates.  She was a year ahead of me, but we shared some classes.  As the young kid in the class, I spent time with her and the other class misfits.  She wore glasses with purple lenses to help her read and was really the only person I knew at the time who went to counseling.  I remember talking during a particularly uninspiring English class about what they talked about.  She came up with a term that was used to describe her personality type – a ‘scatterbrained perfectionist’.  She really didn’t care about much in life, except for dance and as a result she was failing pretty much every class, but was able to teach dance.

I am feeling more and more like a ‘skatterbrained perfectionist’ lately, the difference is, it isn’t a specific area of my life that requires perfection, instead it is a time. Generally I am relaxed about what needs to be done and when, but I will go from being chilled and not stressed to requiring everything finished, neat, tidy and accounted for.  Unfortunately this type of inconsistency is unsettling for everyone, especially the kids.

I think that generally I am able to control the ‘scatterbrained ‘ aspects of my personality, but with so much happening lately, there is more scatterbrained attitudes surfacing (the laundry that needs doing before school tomorrow is probably a perfect example of this).    I am back at work tomorrow, so the plan is that I will be too busy to think of all the negatives and make the most of what really is amazing in my own life and accept that I can’t fix everything.  

1 Comment

Posted by on June 15, 2008 in all about me



One response to “Scatter-Brain

  1. Tips Beauty

    December 1, 2008 at 2:00 pm

    I ve been reading along for a while now. I just wanted to drop you a comment to say keep up the good work.

    Tips Beauty


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