July is OVER was to be one post, summing up everything about why I hate July. Well it seems that the emotion invested in writing the entire post was too much, I was drained and I couldn’t finish the post. I had planned on finishing it later, but without realising it, I hit publish. Not entirely a bad thing, but with my OCD tendencies, leaving a post unfinished (with reminders to myself about what still needs explaining) has left me mortified. I had to go back and edit the post, to remove the unfinished ending.
For now, I will just bullet point what is still to come (as a reminder to myself). I don’t have the emotional energy to write it all tonight, besides So You Think You Can Dance is on and will be followed by re-runs of House!
Here is the short version of July is OVER part 2
The move from hell
- man-child working between Australia and the USA to get ready for the move that was to take place in July
- the renovations needing renovating before the move
- the relocation from hell and why it went wrong
- the return to Australia feeling like I had given up, that I didn’t try and I had failed myself and my family
- the bully boss of anyones nightmares
- renovating the renovations (again)
- AND my iPhone died
Add to this the fact that it is the middle of winter and is generally grey and miserable, and I think I am about done. What I hate most is my inability to convey to others why I hate it so much.
Think of this post as intermission, the (hopefully short) break before the conclusion and happy ending. Fortunately the first half is the saddest part, the second is/was more upbeat but still emotionally draining and I don’t feel like going there just yet. Hopefully if I ever write part 2, I might be able to make sense of July and begin to deal with my emotions and be able live with through the month with anticipation and not dread. Fingers crossed.
